haven't been on this thing in a while.
I finished so many paintings and what not...i should probly get on taking pictures of them and putting them on here soon.

this semester of college is deffently going alot better school wise like classes and grades and all that. Other things not so much.
i just feel liek i dont know wat im doing with myself or what i want to do with myself.
And i keep lying to myself about alot of things.
I wish i was strong enough to let pointless things not bother me
and i wish i could keep a promise to myself..but i never do.
I just dont wanna get caught up in shit and i know i have a choice not to...but easier said then done to make that choice.
basically sometimes im an emotional wreck and i just dont know why i do the things i do.
on another note,
i realised that I miss my real friends, college friends yes i love them but i miss my best friends more then i can ever put to words.

IDK
just typing my thoughts i guess im done now.
peaceeeeee